i'm becoming more pessimistic each day..even if i'm able to hide it at times, some people can tell. *cough* you know who you are. i guess i fail at hiding things. ^^;

so if i say things that shouldn't be said.. don't take it too seriously. the words that come, my actions that i take..aren't really my actions. if that makes any sense. ('elle gets what i'm feeling.)

 

..the incomplete, notliving feeling. it's like the other part of me is asleep somewhere and it wont wake up. aah, its hard to explain, so i'm not going to try. ^^;

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other than my depressing, nonliving side.. it's fun talking to viry, noelle, and people i don't normally talk to. they're able to make me forget things. instead, they distract me with so many things that intrude my mind. o_o;